The Confuse Raindrop

I can hear raindrops falling outside my house. They are more confuse than me so they decided to find something else and crashed their selves to the ground. Then they found another confuse raindrops, gathered, making a group of water and play around. They search for a better place, a place that they can find another confuse raindrops. They don't fight for places but they just gather. They understand that they will say goodbye so soon as the sun comes. Separate them again, and again. They don't know where to go, and where they will gather again. These confuse raindrops may not meet their old friends. They are gone. They filled up another place, shared their experience on their own journeys. Some of those confuse raindrops turned into a very cold cube. Very very cold you can't even feel the warmth of your skin. They are tired, very tired to adapt to another place, to find another confuse raindrops. They gave up their freedom and frozen. That confuse raindrops which turn into cold cube can stand alone for years, but.... Sun will always be there to change their mind. Slowly melt the cold down, persuade the confuse raindrop to be exactly who it is. Accompany the confuse raindrop until its fully change into what it used to be. Then the journey started again. But, the confuse raindrop was shocked with what it see.... Some of its friends turn to be a very dark water, stinky, and some of its friends flow beautifully in the river. The confuse raindrop feel so lucky that it can choose what it wanted to be. The confuse raindrop then talked to God. Said that it don't want to be confuse anymore, said that it want to be shown a way to a safe place. But then God sent it to cloud. The confuse raindrop wondering why. It grumbled all the times and then the rain is falling again. The confuse raindrop fell to a very quiet forest. Another confuse raindrops welcomed him warmly. It was a lake in the middle of the forest. "This is not my destination" It said. But then it looked around, looked at its friends and all of them are happy. Then it thanked God. If it stick to its plan and never talk to God then it will never be here. The confuse raindrop is no longer confuse. It so happy. Beat the negativity out of its thoughts.

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Welcoming Dawn

The rooster crows already, I realized that I haven't sleep since last night. I was busy doing my assignment and I'm actually not feeling good lately. I'm not going to talk about Breaking Dawn even though it was a very good movie. But I have some thoughts that popped up and my head disturbed by it. This year I have faced a lot of things, made me think what is my purpose in life? Wherever I go, I see my pain. Whatever I do, it reminds me of pain. Why do I live in pain? I don't know..... Sometimes, I want to be someone else, or okay... Just be me, but an evil person of me. Someone who is heartless. I always give 110% of me to people I love but they don't even notice it. I don't want to be a sorrowful person, but all I've been through just make me as one. I tried to be happy but then something just took it off. Is God preparing something big for me? That I have to suffer like this for years? I want people to understand me. I've been changing and trying to be a better person but everyone stuck in the past. I just want an eternal love everybody has for me. Share it all day and make peace all around. Even though life is hard for me, but then a little love can erase so much pains I have. But then, I haven't found it yet. A kind of love that only one person have. Still hiding behind endless story which haven't been created yet.

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