#3

I am now listening to some songs. Really good songs.... After that emotional post, i need something to calm me down...yeah :/ Anyway, you guys must listen to Pixie Lott's "Dancing On My Own" I listened to GDTOP's version. I read the lyrics and they said it was featuring someone else... This is such a good song, and i think it really fits on this situation. hahaha. My friends said, almost every songs i listened, are 'really me' lol. My life is soooooooo complicated. I often think if i am too dramatic. But, there's only one way that i will stop being like this. Die. Yeah die ;/ How can someone expect that life can't be dramatic? Or less dramatic? Started from when you were born, you made people cried in happiness, or laugh and else. Part of drama, yeah? Oh damn you hate me saying this, is drama too. That's why if you want to stop being dramatic, die. >.> lol. School will be started very soon. Oh gosh that heat.... that cold....... that professor........ Just think about them makes me tired already. Plus, i got this big big big and heavy heavy heart. lol what should i do....... It's actually fun writing here.... When no one else reading, or maybe just some people who accidentally click this link read this. But i feel a little bit light spilling out everything. I love talking in twitter, but some dramatic-act-nondramatic people are so noisy if their timeline got clogged up by me so... i better talk here. Even though i will still spamming their timeline....... idec hahaha. AGGGGGGGGGGGGH. Hahahaha i really really wanna scream out loud swearing at everything but no i cant! My friends said i am too stupid, and too kind to people. WHYYYYYYY. I meant.... I don't need to be bad to other people... Like.. there's no advantages for me... But still people are so mean...... tsktsktsk. Gosh this is so random, sorry T^T

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#2

So.... i'm here. I'm feeling emotional right now. I feel so sad, angry, at the same time. Getting tired of ranting out in Twitter because i don't want to spam people's timeline. And i guess i can spill it out here. Have you ever love someone? when you never stop thinking about that person, and even when you sleep you dream about him/her? Well yes i do... Or i did. I am not really sure. I'm feeling so dumb right now. I fell so hard to a person. We were in love. Maybe? Or were you just had fun with me? You are the one that i care so much. I am waiting for you, and i cried almost every night. Hoped that when you come around we'll be in love again, just like we first met. Talking about whatever happened in the past. How we shared our silliness together. How we talked randomly and laugh together. i thought we will be like that. I prayed to God every day just to make you come back. Because i want to talk to you so badly. And yes, You are back, we talked. But everything changed. You're very different. I don't know you anymore. And the most hurting part, you treat me like a stranger. I dont know that love can cause so much pain..... And finally seeing you with someone else. Don't deny it cause it's too obvious. It is really hurting when i saw you with that person and you act like i dont exist. Even when i talk to you. Should i count how much pains that you caused? i guess i will never be able to do that. But, in the other side, remembering you, and your cheerful energy makes me forget how painful everything. I don't meant to be very dramatic. But really... This is how i feel. You've changed me. Then you dumped me. But now, i don't know if i should love you or let you go. I am not a second option to anyone you know? You loved someone else, you love being with that person.. Go ahead. Wishing you the best, maybe? ;) And i'm here wishing myself to forget you. To have someone better than you. To have someone who really wants my heart and my love. Just so you know, there's a lot of guys that i ignore just for you. Maybe i was wrong. Hahahahahahahahahahaha There's a rainbow after rain, right? There's a love after pain. For now, i will try to not think about you, to think about someone else. I lovED you.

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